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Yah i vanished for a while and i wonder how many people noticed?.. Well i been living my own life and you know what i ain't telling yah what i have done... just cause
The words "You're my Best Friend!" seem so false to me any more.. more people who say it the harder the back stab is.. So why do people give me dam false hopes like that? Am i only good enough for people at their convenence? I guess so and im not going to keep being walked over like that.. It makes me sick that you can claim a friendship, but really didn't mean one word of it... I still have friends from preschool that said i was their Best friend and THEY MENT IT!!! We are still good friends today.. unlike some peopel who said i was there best friend or we would be friends forever.. Well athst shit if ONE thing could break you apart.. well i guess i didn't mean alot to most of the people.. or i was just a school friend but still no right toss me away like taht.. Probly only the few peopel who even really talk to me when they can oline will read this and others will just pass me over ... So yah if this is my rant.. Im just sick of people who said they where my friends last year and they they dont' take an effort to even talk to me.... yah some people been slowly coming back.. but why the hell should i trust some of you?? You basically betrayed, ignored, made fun of me, and other things.. why should i? ... i do miss everyone... but i know from experence once you do something like that to someone that friendship will never be the same even if you do make up and so on.. its never the same.. I been betrayed in my past and made mends and was friends with them.. but nothing was the same so they just faded away like most people do for me.. My closest friends i had left i seem them slowly fading... away.. but i guess thats what i get.. for not having my lisence not having enough self esteem for friends.. to make my effect for those friends... but alot of my self worthw as lost.. i regain it but i don't know if i even want ot risk it.. even when i got back to roncalli people still get their good laughs about me.. So i just go and do my job drawing and painting... and hope that time speeds up... Maybe i just scare people cause i sometimes know how you feel, or know what you know.. or im just to here in this world.. and i make you come face the world of pain.. so you have to go run back to your false world wheres it safe.. but i just get left behind...
If you just goign to say blah and crap and just left me for waste dont' even bother posting cause i don't care i dont' want to be your trash or your dead weight.. Go live you life without me like you have been doing... And for the people who have stayed close and you truly know who you are.. thanks.. your really all i have left from all the shit that has happened.... and for you people who are comign back in my life.. if your just doing it to get rid of yoru dam guilt well hell just leave now cause i don't want the pain of lossing more friends again Current Mood:  Lost Current Music: Over the Hills and Far away |
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Well this sucks #_~ helloween is on a monday!!! Mrya ally #_~ you both better get to come #_~ with me and co w#_# or i will kindanap you at school with a wagon.. #_~ damit the wagons wheels are broken #_# it will be one hell of a walk lol ^_^ but ill get you So TELL YOUR PARENTS NOW you two that you are goign treat or treating with a freshman in college lol ^_~ ok ttyalCurrent Mood:  sick |
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So yah out of all my friends i had over all the years of my life only a few have shown taht they are true friends... im happy one of them came back to me we didn't talk much over highschool scine it was easy for her to fit in the bigger crowd than me. But she came with me to the lakelot this weekend and it was fun ^_^ i talked to her one day when i was walkign the dogs so its nice to know that shes still one of my close friends. shes takign a semester off shool like i am and we're goign to the same college ^_^ so i can't wait till college starts so i gives me something to do. And anotehr friend even though i might not see him as much since he moves and is in college enjoying #_o watching the peopel around him get caught for weed and being a lunch lady ^_^" i have a feeling well still be friends even though our likes have changed over the years.. but anime and video games rule all.. And only 3 others stay really true to me the 2 froshy of lasty year o_O who are now soph... (not attemping to fisnhi the spelling) and a senoir this year #_^ but its good to know i did get friends who want to take eth effort to be my friend still even if tehre PARENTS ARE EVIL AND WON"T LET THEM COME .. yes.. o_o well this kilnda just a rant type thing for myself and im posting it cause well hell i can ^_^" so those people know that i really appriecate (sorry #_# i can't spell) them being my friends even if its onnly been 1-2 years or even preschool to college i thank you for being good friends to me.. i know theres others.. but i havn't talked to them in a while.. so it makes it hard to see if they really care or i was just one of the friends at school and it fades after it but im ok with thta ^_^ it happens all the time and i know that stuff happens and i was happy that you were my friend during that time.. so yah #_o .. maybe this rant what ever it called thingy a bong cause my brain is stuffy #_~" and my nose is too.. and i had a weird dream and well im sorta kinda sick and well shit i need to finishing painting my grandmas garage #_~" i hope not today ... well.. last but not least YASHA!!! MISTY!! .. yes. o_o'
Zigor's chat?
Zigor:... -_-' so why do i have to do this? Eznik: ^_^ Cause i had one and everyone said taht they hated me.. well ^_^ Except Mrya Zigor: -_-' so basically to see how many people hate me? Eznik: -_^ bingo.. Zigor: -____-' wow...Current Mood:  crappy Current Music: Moonlight Shadow |
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"this is AGAINST MY WILL" -Rune soldier
Today today i painted and painted and i sat on my ass and had to sit outside of the mall for a while and yah #_o |
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so yah
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Aug. 23rd, 2005 @ 11:19 pm
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Well i mowed teh lawn today um drank soda sat on my ass... I have one page down of what i been working on.. so yah.. I went to andys had fun I thankys all of you that signed my yearbook ^_~ i hope you have a good school year so yah Mrya Cow Ally you better be thinking about a place to eat atCurrent Mood:  sleepy Current Music: Oh Starry Night |
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WEll its been fun and all but i fianlly well um.. #_# did NOTHING lol no i pplayed wow for a while today not much i need to get together with some of my friends who talk to me still and eat from din din together ^_~ so yah
Aug. 22nd, 2005 @ 09:08 pm
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well i guess people started school.. some people cared to talk to me whle others kinda pushed me away i wasn't suprised who pushed me away.. and then another friend remeber me of childhood.. two peopel when the main wasn't around me and her friend were great friend once the main person came back it was like i just didn't exisit anymore... i guess people change.. and im not goign to be included in that change.. oh well I had a good converstation with Kevin.. #_# Cow didn't knwo he was taking me home and i just barly missed him lol ^_^" so my and Mrya searched the school down for him and failed at finding him... hm.. anyone esle.. i talked to austin and another one named austin not much conversattion.. so yah.. i guess some friendship arn't going to last me well #_^ at least i know my real friends from ones that just want to use me...hm... must take up more space... *searches her computer* elol
NO WHAT TEH HELL #__#
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Under 12: You are a kid at heart. You still have an optimistic life view - and you look at the world with awe.
13-19: You are a teenager at heart. You question authority and are still trying to find your place in this world.
20-29: You are a twentysomething at heart. You feel excited about what's to come... love, work, and new experiences.
30-39: You are a thirtysomething at heart. You've had a taste of success and true love, but you want more!
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Aug. 16th, 2005 @ 08:56 am
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Well, lets see i havn't updated in a LONG time... hmm -_-' lets see what have i done.... got sick for cows b-day... um tried to through him a suprise on.. it would of worked if a two certain PEOPLE *COUGH* weren't goign to make it calling everything last minute O_O I gave them 3 hours notice #_# #_^" heh we went bowling taht day.. hm.. i been to the lake lot alot i need to drag ally down there #_o still Cow and Spencer been over alot hoggin WOW ^_^ lol I been playing WOW alot #_# and what esle um Bowling.. Cedar point with Cow and his dad #_^" that was interesting drive.. Cow + maps = LOST #_^" so it took like an extra hour to get there #_# .. hm.. -_- what esle Wow.. wow... wow... Working on FLash project for a website and making a website for teh Magick Shoppe ^_^
Today~
Was kinda a trip back down memory lane #_o me and my mom Mission to Clean the Garage.. so alot of old stuff taht was mine was in tehre #_^ lol it was fun digging through all of it #_# we ended up bringing most of teh garage into our house #_# I found out my dad and mom used to paint alot and i saw some of there art wrk its really good too O__O ^_~" heh so now we have a big mess in the house.. and cause of the rain im drentched #_~" and misty and yasha are both crying cause they hate thunder...
~ SO thats it for me as i can tell only like what 3 people have talked to me over the summer #_- well i guess i know who wants to stay my friends #_o during my college years.. i been thinking about getting a job one that i like alot.. I used to do it all the time too #_# THIS JOB MAKES MOST PEOPLE INSANE HAHAHAHA .. or they just end up getting tied to a chair one of teh to... so yah i need to driver lisence so i can visit mesa Crew ^_~ at Roncalli ill hunt you down Myra Ally COW O_O I WILL TRUST ME I WILL ELOL!!!
~Now a word from Doctor Eznik~
Hello All ^_^ *Wave* Brat decided to let me get a little Chat time #_o i don't have alot... and i think Zigor has a Shot gun ready if i talk to long ^_^' Well Any Question for me Leave them here... Zigor #__# PUT THE GUN DOWN!! *runs for his life*
Aug. 9th, 2005 @ 04:43 pm
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| » DDR .. NO WOW!! |
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Well i managed to finish my DDR mat ^_^" and some crappy picture i took
CRAP PICTURES!
Jun. 16th, 2005 @ 08:50 pm
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| » DDR #_o |
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Well lets see i finally decided to draw on my ddr mat this is what i have so far #_^" heh
Jun. 10th, 2005 @ 02:53 pm
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| » Not much |
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So yah i got board and made a back ground ^__^ I IWLL MESS UP ALL OF YORU LJs.s. well if you allow larged pictures ^_~' its one of my fav characters so HAHAHA
Jun. 8th, 2005 @ 10:06 pm
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PLEASE DON"T FORGET MY LAST POST PEOPLE!! Oh yah new ava thigns ^_~
Tell me what you think ^_~
Jun. 4th, 2005 @ 01:02 am
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| » So Another Day I see |
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Well Hey after my computer getting format i lost important info of all my friends so if yah want to help me out ^_~ this what i need from yah .. unless well you just don't care if i ever cantact you again -_- don't post anything its up to you all peopel can post and if you want me to add you to my Lj just say so ^_~
Name:
Home Phone:
Cell Phone
Adress:
B-Day:
Email:
Favorite Color too!
and if you have other phone numbers add them #_#
^_~ so i can keep hold of yah ^_~ so if you knwo more than one persons infor put it down ^_~
^_^ SMILE!
-_- wheres my beer?
Jun. 3rd, 2005 @ 07:18 pm
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| » well its a new day dam |
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Well i manged to Mess up my computer again so i had to format it again but I finally have all my old programs bak and working #_^
Well i got bord and made a little ava and yah #_o
^_^" one for Eznik and another for Zigor ^_~ more to come and will be later made itno Destop themes O_O
Jun. 3rd, 2005 @ 12:18 am
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Yesterday... *reverse time* I manage to *blip* up my compiter ^_~ windows couldn't load unless it was in safe mode.. then i kinda said make a check every restart -___' a HOUR CHECK.. every restart !! O_O and i couldn' get SAFE MODE AGAIN!!.. so i fomated my computer.. -_-' so this is me on my .. sorta clean computer almost have my main programs back on it.. so yah was a little stressed cause my dad's computer this morning wouldn't work eitehr -___-' so i thought i messed up his computer just to find out later tommys internet was down.. so yah I have a clean room #_o if that makes up for anything yah... redownloading ms 9% currently ... and i have to fight for a place on my bed when i do head to bed -__-'.. My weekend was good I had Cow over and Sep came over we play a d & d #_o that was crazy i killed myself with a critcal miss @_@ and we had a blast at Andys ope house ^_~ played tackle football slide tackled one of his sisters too ^_~ then went to the lake lot we played a word game that was fun. I stole Cows fish and tommy caughht spencers fish that was funny #_^ Misty fell into teh lake when trying to get my bobber. um.. I caught the most fish!! *Victory sign* AH HA! um we have Sameria Champloo vol 3 now it was awesome ^_~ so yah i have a working computer..
May. 31st, 2005 @ 10:46 pm
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| » So one More final and Highschool ends |
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.. #__~ every one is writing so much.. and i don't have mush to type #_o oh well ill just take up less space ^_~ on your guys lj. I gave Stratton my farewell gifts three drawings i really like and 24 pack of pepsi who someone kocked over and one of them busted #_~ so yah.. #_o One more final.. SCHOOL WILL BE OVER WITH.. and yah -_- every one is so sad.. i gues scause i have lost people all through grade school it doesn't hurt and i know i meet every person for a reason ^_^ and i can aways come back and Visit Stratton and the Troll i mean Tully.. I know where people live an dyou all know my email or phone number so ha -_o bratchan@scbglobal.net now you all have my email o_O So graduration is going to be BORING as Hell -____-' and Cow and i think Myra are going and i wanr them ITS SHALL BE BORING O_O So yah Its been a weird year.. parts sucked but yah I have 3 really close friends and i have lots of other firneds i can depend on too. I have experence so much Hey it tops all my years of highschool i wish i got involved with more things at school cause its worth selling yoru soul to school. I am goingto Miss Strat so.. Im goign to become his NEW STALKer.. i mean.. um #_^ heh
May. 25th, 2005 @ 08:22 pm
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| » "I DON"T WANT TO DIE IM ONLY 6!!!" |
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Lets see um I had Myra, Megaman, and Cow over this weekend. We played Maple story #_o don't ask how we all did but at one point two of us where playing = ^_^" we played D&D and um I DM #_# i had really nothing planned but i guess they all liked it #_^ so yah my weekend was pretty good i thinks
May. 15th, 2005 @ 09:48 pm
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| » Life a Bitch |
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Well prom i guess sucked cause people make it out to be the best -__-' well tahst crap ...
I didn't finish making my dress so at 4 on sat i try on my backup dress... to notice it was made wrong #_o and then i took a shower and we headed to teh mall at 5 ~Warning Prom Starts at 7 and friends will be at home from 6 - 6:30 ~ So i got teh dress my mom really wanted me to get from the beginning so head home make it home at 5:30 good timing so half hour took doing make up, perfume (gag) and my hair - evil stuff - about 6 ... I put on my dress... and they stupid lady didn't take off the ink exploding thing!!! So #_o My dad drives back to the mall.. i told cow to come early.. #_o and everyone esle decides too so about 6:10 or so .. #_# everyone is piling into my house and i have no dress #_# yay?
Prom~
Lets see food sucked.. -_-' and i didn't feel good at the beginning after i ate (yah sick shifty eyes sick...) but after that me and Cow while everyone esle went to dance we went to get pictures. Some random guy took our picture out of no where the lady who i paid for the pictures #_o some how new my phone number #_o so yah ... after the picture i went to teh dance floor with cow stood around next to the window i slow danced half a song with cow #_#" heh and then the monment you all waited for.. I slept!.. and slept.. an dthen i thought we were going went to the table... so we weren't so slept more #_^" and Cow was my volenttered pillow.. heh #_- WAY to many compliments for one night so yah that was prom and after prom i just mess around
Mother Nature~
Alot of crap been happening and it sucks.. people who want to move on spiritally or open up to it.. well we arn't at the lvl we should be at so Mother Nature is piling all the shit on us at once so we can get at that lvl we need to be at. Mines getting better a little, i just think i need to meditate more so i can get some sleep. But i know people close to me are having a harder time than me so i want to help them any way i can. So if you people need anything call, aim me or just appear at my house #_o? ( 4:30 ~have to be quiet nap time~ -7) So yah thats my little bit of info
Every one take care. Get plenty of rest and relax schools almost over. Don't stress out about finals just take them as they come.... DMA YOU TRIANGLE HIPS LADY.. er *looks around* um HI ^_^
~And thats, THAT~
May. 9th, 2005 @ 09:25 pm
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I hate dress shoppign -_-' i had to get a prom dress just in case i don't finish by day of prom so yah -_-' but yah thats done hurray now make up homework #_#
May. 3rd, 2005 @ 08:35 pm
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Yah my day hasn't gone the best so yah -_- we wont' go into that but yah
10 mor days to claim the PILLOW!
Apr. 25th, 2005 @ 08:49 pm
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